Alive & kicking (really!!!)


I live with my Mom. That’s it, just me and her….I hear her continually praying and asking God for help in her old age. She doesn’t want to die alone.  I keep asking myself , why is she crying out loud like that, when I am with her? It all boils down to her trusting in God to watch out for her, rather than on people. I get it, but I always wonder, how is that going to translate to my life… because I would be totally alone in my old age. Some times I wonder if suicide is an option, but I know that I am too scared to self destruct. I wonder about the people who commit suicide, generally we like to label them as cowards, but I wonder if its true. I know that I cant commit suicide, because I am too scared to carry it forward. So wouldn’t the suicidal s have an extra bit of courage to get it done???

 

Just thinking loudly

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About curryNcode

carefree, careless, self loathing, forgetful of people, places and names....yet I do care for people or that's what I would like to think... addicted to all things in life ( in a bad way).... That's me in a nutshell. Love me or hate me.... that would be subject to your interpretation of the truth, and what is the truth??? Well, that's a loaded question.... go read the Bible.. if that's your thing

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