Sometimes, we take great pains in serving god, but to our disappointment, we are faced with trials or diseases over which we have no control and we feel like we were betrayed by god even though we took great pains to serve him. Not realizing that we don’t deserve anything, we blame him for our circumstances, that at present may seem like a punishment. We forget Romans 8:28 in which he says, “God works all things together for good for those who love him and are called according to his purpose.”
The pain was debilitating
Faith started deteriorating
When I heard the diagnosis
I needed an oasis
To soothe my anxiety
A hide out from society
Felt like a necessity
I chose to be in a state of denial
My trials were only trivial
I felt like a daughter of Belial
Sharp was the blade of betrayal
I had tried to be faithful
Was God being spiteful?
When I was afflicted with pain
I drifted to a different terrain
His vindication pushed me into an abyss
I longed to have a feel of bliss
I didn’t know who to blame
I failed to uphold his name
I started reflecting on the cross where he died
Between man and god, was a growing divide
But Christ took a stance
To change our circumstance
He opened my eyes
Stopped me from believing lies
He bore my punishment unto death
Suffered until his last breath
He became my debt canceller
And sent me his counselor
