An ode to st. Chantix

I have been smoking for about 12 years. For a long time I refused to believe that I was a smoker. What started as an idle past time with friends over a cup of coffee has effectively become the excuse for everything. Feeling good, bad, hungry…have a smoke. It even helps to alleviate a blocked nose.. well so it seems…until its too late. Under doctors orders (for medical reasons), I had to quit smoking. Enter Chantix…the one stop solution to nicotine addiction….well almost. For the record this was the third time I am on Chantix. The first two times were a phenomenal success. I stayed off it for three to four months and started it again…WHY??? I DON’T KNOW, BUT I DID.

The reason for this post is to warn smokers and the users of Chantix. The third time on Chantix was like a nightmare. The drug its was not working for me. The first two times, I hardly had the urge to smoke, but this time it did not have that effect. I was smoking well beyond the advertised 7 days. My heart was a mess. I couldn’t take seven steps without going through heavy heart palpitations. I had never experienced that before. Climbing steps was even worse. I would feel like I was going to faint. I seriously thought that my heart was giving up on me.

Fortunately I started goggling on Chantix and saw some web responses from others. I got off Chantix just 2 days back (after using it for 2 weeks) and I can already feel the difference. I feel so much better. At the end of the day, my advice is you have to WANT and NEED to quit. Nothing else works. Its been 2 days since I stopped Chantix, and the the urge to smoke is mind numbing, but I am not going back there ever again.



Life as it is

I have been meaning to blog for a while, but I have never gotten around to it. I had several other blogs before, some were fictitious, some were centered around my life, but eventually I had to take it down, because I thought they were in some ways self incriminating.

Anyways, I got up this morning and couldn’t go to sleep. Joge is studying for her exam so I thought I will give her company. My dream had always been to read the Bible and pray early in the morning, which I was able to do today.

My voice You shall hear in the morning, O Lord, In the morning I will direct it to You, And I will look up. (Psalm 5-3, NKJV)

Salvation begins and ends with God. I have been struggling with that statement since the first time I believed in God. I always tried to make myself right with God… but it never happened, because that never happened. It took me 25 years to get that simple statement.

Deep Fried Frog Legs Recipe

24 pairs frog legs
2 well beaten eggs
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon cayenne
1/4 cup heavy cream (or curd + Lime juice)
1/2 cup flour
1 cup fine bread crumbs
4 cup oil
1/2 cup honey mustard sauce


Split legs. In bowl, blend eggs, salt, cayenne & cream. Place flour & crumbs in separate bowls. Dust legs with flour. Dip in egg mixture & roll in crumbs. Heat oil to 375. Fry legs for 5 minutes or until golden brown. Place on a serving tray & serve with sauce.

The frog legs were brought from Suburbia Seafood, 135 S. Boro Line Road. Bridgeport, PA 19406