Repentance vs. Addiction


Repentance is a loaded word in the world of addiction. Can an addict really repent, if he/she keeps going back to their vomit.  Else where I read the true signs of repentance in an addict

  1. Humility
  2. Willingness to serve others
  3. Responsibility for oneself
  4. Attitude of thankfullness
  5. Submissive spirit

I truly beleive that I do have all of these qualities, except in my hour of weakness. the bewitching hour that takes over my sanity and makes me insane. I have overcome a few inner demons  and I am still working on the horde that remains.

Can you actually pray to GOD while you are exercising your weakness…or when you are in the thick of it? I am not sure if it’s right, but I have done so many times. Somehow I figured that GOD would overlook my state of being. Truth be said, he has freed me miraculously, under extreme circumstances, when I knew for sure that I was headed down the rabbit hole.

Acts 26:20 declares, “I preached that they should repent and turn to God and prove their repentance by their deeds.” Is this really possible for an addict? How many times can you repent (Is that even repentance?)  before you actually kick the habit?

This idea that if you haven’t completely changed your behavior then you haven’t truly repented, can be damaging to anyone’s faith but is absolutely devastating to the faith of an addict.

So if repentance doesn’t mean to completely change your behavior, what does it mean?

I believe that repentance means that one has to change his heart and want to serve God more than himself.  Even when your life is consumed by addiction, but if you start spending time in prayer and seeking out encouragement from fellow Christians, you are already on your path to recoery. You may not ever completely beat your addiction, but your imperfect devotion to God is no different from anyone else’s imperfect devotion to God.

Imperfect devotion to God is what we all have. Anyone who believes that their devotion is more than imperfect might as well scoff at the cross, because anyone who’s perfect doesn’t have a need for it.

Even as I write this, I struggle with some old, and some new found addictions. If it weren’t for the cross, I would have taken my own life many times over. But with the cross, I have hope till my last breath. Hope that never diminishes, but grows stronger day by day, hour by hour, second by second.

As Stephen Hawkings put it ” As long as there is life, there is hope!!!”

 

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unfettered


The septum of my heart, broken
diffusing red with the occult
weak, listless, untenable
wayfarer, languid and lost

Horns for a crown
cerebrum on fire
phallic lust
eyes wide open

wartorn, savage lands
landscape of my heart
weary from trials
assailed by demons

soul lamenting, spirit torn
estranged, wrenched, emasculated
blood red skies
reigning on me

hallowed grounds
oblation for guilt
my weakness, his strength
new wine for old blood

I wish


I wish someone would have told me that the kind of pornography you’re most turned on by is usually linked to a corresponding hurtful event in your life

I wish someone would have told me that the dopamine and oxytocin being released from my watching certain types of pornography would cause me to question my sexual orientation, which in turn cost me relationships with friends.

I wish someone would have explained what “sexual anorexia” was and that countless young men are unable to get erections because they’ve been watching porn since they were around 15 years old.

 

Is It Okay to Smoke Marijuana?


Drugs will not make one’s problems disappear; they will only delay the onset of having to deal with problems and will often create more problems.
SEAN MCDOWELL

In my past, I smoked plenty of marijuana, so I get the draw. Being high feels good, and when life stinks who doesn’t long for a good escape? But as Christians, our escape route must look different from the non-believing world’s. We are to turn toward God, not drugs. He is our pathway to freedom, unlike drugs, which often entangle us.

While the Bible speaks directly to alcohol it doesn’t address the use of marijuana. Yes, I’ve heard the desperate attempts to justify weed usage on the basis of Genesis 1:29 where God says, “Behold, I have given you every plant yielding seed that is on the face of all the earth.” But do we really think God had getting high in mind? Talk about a poor use of Scripture. And would we use the same logic for the coco leaf—the raw material for producing the drug cocaine? Of course not! We are to steward God’s creation wisely.

Now, you might be asking, “What’s wrong with smoking a little pot, especially since it’s legal in certain states now?”

First, just because marijuana is legal in some states doesn’t make it moral. As Christians, Scripture, not law, is to serve as our moral compass. Remember, we are to follow the law of the land so far as it aligns with our moral principles, but the moment the law conflicts with the law of God we are to side with God (Acts 4:18-19).

Second, unlike alcohol, marijuana can’t be enjoyed in moderation, especially today. When I smoked weed all it took was one good hit of some green bud and one could have a pretty good high. With today’s increased levels of THC the marijuana is far more potent. And while I’ve met countless people who can enjoy a glass of wine and be seemingly unaffected, I’ve never met someone in my past that smoked weed for the purpose of not getting high.

Third, marijuana has been medically proven to have harmful side effects—from laziness to destroying brain cells, which reduces one’s IQ—two things the Bible forbids (see Proverbs 6:9-11 and 1 Corinthians 6:19-20).

Fourth, marijuana often serves as a gateway drug. It spikes one’s curiosity for other drugs, leaving many wondering, “I wonder what _______ would feel like?” It has a way of capturing many of its participants and turning them into full-blown drug addicts.

With the insights provided by medical research and through examination of biblical principles, it’s amazing that the question of marijuana usage is even up for debate among the Christian constituency. Avoid it, friend.

 Thought to Ponder

Ultimate peace is never found through using drugs. It’s only found through Jesus Christ.

 Memory Verse

Training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in the present age (Titus 2:12).

 One-Minute Apologist VideoBobby Conway, “Is It Okay to Smoke Marijuana?”

What’s Wrong With Pornography?


Pornography takes human sexuality out of its natural context—intimacy between two human beings—and makes it a product to be bought and sold.
WILLIAM. M. STRUTHERS

A few years back I was talking to an old friend on the phone. At one point during the conversation I was discussing the importance of avoiding pornography. He chimed in and said, “What’s wrong with porn, man? I love porn.” Well, he’s not alone. So do millions of other people. That’s why it’s a multi-billion dollar industry. But what is it about pornography that we should pay serious attention to? And be cautious of?

First, porn objectifies women. Or all people for that matter. The options for porn material are limitless. There’s homosexual porn, child porn, and of course adult female porn. We objectify people when we use them for our own self-centered purposes. That’s what porn does. It uses people. It treats them like objects. It objectifies them! Porn is using an image of a human being made in the image of God to gratify one’s lustful desires. And that’s not good.

Second, porn destroys our brain. Seriously. It causes brain damage. Let me explain. With the advancement of neuroscience we now know that our willpower is a function of the prefrontal lobe of the brain. Consistent use of pornography actually reshapes this critical part of the brain, thus weakening one’s moral fortitude. The will is sapped of strength through continuous porn play. It’s often referred to as hypofrontality. This breakdown of the frontal lobe of the brain especially affects addicts. Their addictive desires heighten while their determination to resist is weakened and buckles under sexual pressure. Next time you find yourself tempted to look at pornography just remind yourself that porn destroys the brain.

That should make us all think twice.

Third, porn causes self-deception. I once heard someone say, “The problem with being deceived is you don’t know that you’re deceived.” How true that is, especially when our behaviors turn addictive. The problem with porn is that the more one uses it the more one can’t stop using it. The motto for the porn addict becomes, “Just once more.” In the moment of desire he or she believes they’ll be able to beat it the next time. So, in self-deceit they fulfill themselves in the moment. But the problem is they tell themselves the exact same thing the next time—and the next time, and the next time—until they really make a decision to quit viewing porn once and for all, or destroy their lives in the name of addiction.

Fourth, porn depraves the soul. Porn sucks the life out of its victims, creating within viewers an insatiable appetite that can never be satisfied and constructing an appetite that grows more deviant in what it views in order to scratch their viewing itch. If you’re addicted to porn let me encourage you to get some help. ASAP. And know this: Christ can set you free (John 8:32; Philippians 4:13).

Thought to Ponder
Porn is like a cosmic vacuum cleaner. If you give yourself to it it’ll suck your life away.

Memory Verse
I made a covenant with my eyes not to look lustfully at a young woman (Job 31:1).

One-Minute Apologist Video : Bobby Conway, “What’s Wrong With Pornography?”