Thrashed my 2 year old nephew


This happened 2 decades back, but it is still in the back of my mind like yesterday. My sister entrusted me to look after her 2 year old son while I was staying with them and attending school. She said she would be out for a few hours. Unfortunately, I took this as an opportunity to watch a skin flick. My nephew wanted some extra attention; he wanted me to hold him. In the heat of the moment my selfishness overcame me. I beat him hard on his thighs a couple of times and locked him in an adjacent room. He continued to cry even louder, So I went back and beat him a couple of times more.

He is currently attending an ivy league university and I am probably one of his favorite uncles. I hate myself for what I did. Sooo much…

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unfettered


The septum of my heart, broken
diffusing red with the occult
weak, listless, untenable
wayfarer, languid and lost

Horns for a crown
cerebrum on fire
phallic lust
eyes wide open

wartorn, savage lands
landscape of my heart
weary from trials
assailed by demons

soul lamenting, spirit torn
estranged, wrenched, emasculated
blood red skies
reigning on me

hallowed grounds
oblation for guilt
my weakness, his strength
new wine for old blood

I wish


I wish someone would have told me that the kind of pornography you’re most turned on by is usually linked to a corresponding hurtful event in your life

I wish someone would have told me that the dopamine and oxytocin being released from my watching certain types of pornography would cause me to question my sexual orientation, which in turn cost me relationships with friends.

I wish someone would have explained what “sexual anorexia” was and that countless young men are unable to get erections because they’ve been watching porn since they were around 15 years old.